There is a bunch of stuff going on recently. Well, mainly two things: first, i have started my second semester and secondly, i finally made up my mind to move out and live a life independently. Today, to some extent is really my first day in the uni, lectures, tutorials and stuff like that. i have had a two-week break before the beginning of this term. What did i do? Honestly, nothing. i have never lived such a lazy life before: got up at almost 12 and sat in front of the laptop for the rest of the day. It's hard to imagine how i managed to get through that time. Anyway, i suppose that this probably is going to be my last lazy holiday. I got to sit for that fucking ielts test again in unisa during the easter holiday and after this semester there is a 15-day holiday, not going back home, simply because it's too short and not worthy the money i spend on the flight. My plan is like this, if everything goes smooth, saying this i really mean not failing any subject, i will probably go to sydney and stay with my friends there. It's gonna be fun. Then i have to struggle for another three months before i can finally go back home. Acturally, i already arranged a lot of tasks to do, among which getting my dirving lisence is prior. Cars have never been so attractive or tempting to me like the moment, especially after one of my firends got a FTO. That car is so damn good and you can experience the speed. By now, i finally figure out one good thing about adelaide, that's adelaide hills-mountain tracks. When you dirve there, it's easy to recall a movie called initiallD. Everything is so familiar. Get down to business, to be frank, this semester is far more demanding than last one. We're learning exactally the same content as local students and sit for the same exam at the same place at the same time. That means i have to spread more effort to study, spend more hours after class and use every possible way to equip myself. As i mentioned i'm moving out, it's not that i'm unhappy with my homestay. Jon and Natalia have been so good to me and help me in every possible way, take me out to meet locals and go to cinema to watch a movie that i couldn't understand. I want to say a huge thank you to them, for their kindness, help and love. May God bless you.
The reason is lied in myself, i'm not satisfied with myself, i find that i'm getting lazy living a such life: i don't have to wash clothes since there is washing machine working for me, i don't have to cook because there is somebody out there cooking for me and put it on the table and say" jenson, dinner is ready". It appears to be a cosy life, however, that is not what life all about, at least not the one i'm after. So moving out is the best solution i can come up with and i know there gonna be difficulties and i know i'm gonna bounced back. Just do it.
Hope is one good thing, not always, guiding me through darkness. Thinking of my family makes me more powerful than ever before, each time this effect got added up to reach a new level. I always know there are someone out there in the back supporting me and just like my homestay mother puts, don't be homesick, man. your hometown is always there waiting for you to come back. No matter how screwed up tomorrow is gonna be, there is one good thing called hope. I'm no longer lost in this crazy world, i don't give a fuck about what others think about me, i just wanna live a life in my own way. i don't give a shit about how good or sick you are. If you get 100% and i get 0%, congratulations, good job. Well, i don't feel ashamed, either. I'm doing my best. Do not ever compare to others, yours best is your perfect.
Another good news is that i got an american teacher for accounting, which acturally mean a can have a break from fucking OZ accent and a good chance to learn really american accent. One day, i'm gonna talk like Eminem, talk like him, dress like him, act like him, shit like hime and fuck like him. Good, good, good.
Well, i've gotta go, still have to wake up at 6:30 form my lecture.
Sincerely yours. PS: this is stan. i'm gonna be the biggest fun u ever lose.
Hit me back just to chat.
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