Well, another stupid day. I just feel tired and really depressed. I have few work to do. What make me sad is that I can not control myself. Or just I always think about control myself and when I fell to do that, I get too unsatisfied to myself. Cursing myself again and agian is a waste of my inner energy. Sleep is all I want, yet I can not sleep well. There are horror and sad dreams surrounding me every night. Oh dear, just let me go and have a good break.
I can let myself go but what should I do if there's no me anymore. Sad.