09.18.2017
Second Master之确据
There are many many times that I'm not sure whether having a second master is the correct choice for me. Many times that I thought taking a second master is only my choice, which is selfish and stubborn, not God's plan.
However, since this semester, every Tuesday I met my Professor W, she always comforts me, encourages me, supports me and gives me lots of studying opportunities. Every Tuesday, I felt grateful having her as my second master mentor. These signals assures me that this master is not only my will, but also in the plan of God.
HE knows I'm weak and unsure, hence he comforts me and encourages me. And now I know it's God's plan and His will that I should keep studying the second master, I'll no longer doubt my choice and should pay full effort to study and research well, to give thanks to my Lord and be a good Christian witness before my mentor.
一次又一次，被激励感恩。主岂不是一次又一次，感动转回我们的心。
10.5.2017
感谢神！
安慰了我的不安，知道我的需求，回应了我的祷告。这周二见老板，老板当时希望我可以在Oct Break就把Machine Learning in Action 完全看完（只有1个礼拜><)，并熟悉每一段code。我很紧张，因为按着现在的进度，半年才能完全读完并且熟练。
今天周四见了老板，老板表示理解我， 并且延长了期限，希望我可以在学期末把这本书读完。按目前的进度，一天攻克一段coding，预计可以完成书的三分之二。感谢神愿意帮助孩子延长期限，也求主赐给孩子智慧，可以有智慧学习好，为老板所用，也能得老板的喜悦，也能不懒惰，做好主让孩子当作的。
10.17.2017
感谢神！满满的感恩！
之前和先生说，结婚后独立了，不再问父母要钱，所以再读一个学位而且自己要付学位，一个学期一万五还是感觉压力很大，用结婚基金的钱交学费会觉得安全感在下降。
当初很希望可以靠自己的力量去各种申请TA，来免去学位和不安的情绪。紧张&不安比祷告要多很多。前几次见老板，也说直接给funding可能不大。
今天见了老板，提到几件事：
1. 90% possibilities that I'll be offer a 1/4 RA.
I have to do data analysis which I love and direction is in finance.
特别感谢老板能够提供funding，也很感恩神的带领和帮助，他体恤我们的软弱和需要，我们更该服事祂，感恩。其实原本想能免学位就已经很知足了，但是祂却给了更大的恩典。也当殷勤做工，因为Roman13.
2.老板提了建议：建议直接读博士 rather than just a second master with thesis
其实考虑读博士有一阵子了，但还需要很多的祷告才知道是否是神的带领。但还是很开心！
3. 建议博士研究方向：SIMNN
4. 考虑以后要做faculty or go industry
if faculty... academia
if industry-> Go BIG
2017.10.19
alphago zero
Simulation+Optimization+Deep Learning, 确实很有意思啊。令人兴奋～
