By/YangTi
These days, I am considering whether or not to change a job. Because my mom always said that I should be a teacher and there are many advantages to be a teacher as a girl like me. And it is the adolescence of my life that I could find a boyfriend and then fall in love, live in my marriage, give birth to two kids. I have to be hurry, and catch my best to do the correct choose before I am twenty six. But … I am confused.
Introduce myself first. Girl, twenty three now.
I had graduated one year from Normal University, and taken part in a job since then. Over a year. Working in this company is not perfect at all, but I did meet so many great people, who had left office now. We are friends, we share happiness and bitter comes from life and work, we read the same books, watch the same movies and share our own views, we bless and pray for each other and give our hands when others are in need. Distance is not the excuse disturb us, we are together every mimutes, waitting call for. The colleagues in my first job are gifts, for me. Thanks in my deep heart.
As you can see that, I should have left earlier when the Annual bonus was not in my pocket, nor I should have left when my close colleagues were leaving one by one. No! No this time, no that time. I talk to myself. Maybe I can stay longer because of my family, my mom! Life in office is full of memory, suffering. Tears nearly came out when I glance at their places they seated, touch things they touched, do the same things we used to do, and see the letters they written on the wall. Missing so so much and feel lonely. However, life in my family is happy and regular.
Usually, I get up early and do some sports for nearly an hour when It is mom's time to prepare eating. And then we have wonderful breakfast from 6:45a.m to 7:15a.m. We drink tea, eat toast bread, egg, and some apple, that is routine. Sometime Mom cook fried dumplings in the morning, so delicious! We share everyting happened around us on the tabble. Once the clock passed 7:15a.m, Mom is going to work, it is my duty to finish the left and clean the table. I enjoy the housework of my part. And I would choose to listen to music or some readings with Bluetooth stereo while I am holding my hair, changing my clothes, putting my luch in the box. I can take my time to the company by bike or by bus, and the bus is not crowded at all. Each second is quiet and peaceful. Feel like I am in the heaven.
By the time I arrived home, dinner always ready by my dear mother. Because my working hour is one hour later than her. All the food I want to eat will be fulfilled if I told mom before her leaving her office(5:00p.m) to food market. We have dinner, communicating in our dinning room. By the time we finish, clock point to 7:15p.m. What a coincidence! And it happen everyday! Mom and I go for a walk after taking bath, slow pace and hand in hand when the sky dark down and the heat dispersed after gentle wind. Sometimes we walk around the park, sometimes along the street. So sweat and warm. I have plenty of time for reading, thinking, and writting before I fall into sleep.
On weekends, we clean the room together. In the afternoon, we go to supermarket and buy some daily stuff, new dress, new shoes, and some tasteful snacks.
It seems like everyday is stolen from somewhere else, and I am a little terrified to pay it off painful in return in my future.
Yes, gone! All of these, gone! And never come back again, just beacause I am getting older, I am relying on my family much, and I have to leave, to fly, like a bird. No leaving, no growing. These dream days should not accompany with me forever! It never do that!
Once, I had a much regular life, but now I need break it off and rebuild a new one by myself. I have to. I do not need a family in arrange, but I have to live like a family even though there is only me. Follow my heart and make my own mind, never betray myself!
Dream or die? I can't stand myself in the arranged marriage, nor never stop being worried about paltry domestic concerns which is wrong chosen in the beginning. It is time that I should take responsibility to myself, and pick up my dream. Yeah~Dream hit me, again! And I am the only one who can come true. My dream! My dream! My dream! No one could do that but I can try. I owe it on the earth! Working toward to it is the most urge thing I should do right now.
I want to travel to many more interesting places I long for in my spoken English, meet more kind and funny people and make friends with them, taste more fantastic food I never eaten, and the most important is experiencing, developing myself more with time's flying. My life should be counting and value, no regret!
Each character I am writting down, the decision I made is more determined. I am saying goodbye to the passed. There is the only person who can face my future, it is me. No longer a little girl, no longer a teenager under parents, but it is an adlut with dream, with her own heart.
The best year I ever had, the sweetest memory in my deep heart.
Hi~there, I am alone. Looking for growing!
