年轻的朋友们,能有这样一个机会,和大家谈谈我的青年时代,谈谈我这一个人生有没有遗憾,谢谢给了我这样一个机会。关于遗憾,我查过字典,字典里有各式各样的解释,我最喜欢的一个解释就是,我们能够去满足的心愿,可是我们没有去完成,我们深感惋惜。我想跟大家说的第一件事,就是在我年轻的时候,真是有一件万分遗憾的事情,那件事情如果发生了,我今天根本就不可能站在这里和大家做这样的一番分享。
Young friends, I can have such a chance to talk about my youth, I talk about a life with no regrets, thank you for giving me such a chance. A pity, I checked the dictionary, a dictionary have every kind of interpretation, an interpretation I like the most is we can go to satisfy the desire, but we did not go to completion, we deeply regret. The first thing I want to tell everyone, even when I was young, is really a very regrettable thing, that thing if it happens, I wouldn't be standing here and share a such thing.
1969年的时候 我不到十七岁,就穿上军装从北京出发到达新疆,我们坐上了大卡车,(经过)六天的奔波,翻越天山,到达了南疆的喀什,我的战友们都留在了新疆的喀什,我们五个女兵又继续,坐上大卡车向藏北出发了,这一次,这个世界在我的面前,已经不是平坦的了,它好像完全变成了一个竖起来的世界,每一天每一天的海拔,从三千米到四千米,从四千米到五千米,直到最后,翻越了六千米的界山达坂,它是新疆和西藏分界的一个山脉,进入了西藏阿里,我恍惚觉得这已经不再是地球了,它荒凉的程度,让我觉得这是不是火星或者是月亮的背面。
In 1969 when I was less than seventeen years old, should wear his uniform starting from Beijing to Xinjiang, we sit on the big truck, (after) six days on the run, climb the Tianshan Mountains, arrived in Kashi, my comrades in arms in the Xinjiang of Kashi, the five of us women continued to sit on, the truck to set out, this time, the world before me, is not flat, it seems completely into a vertical up the world, every day every day above sea level, from three thousand meters to four thousand meters, from four thousand meters to five thousand meters, until finally, over six meters Jieshan Daban, it is a mountain of Xinjiang and Tibet boundary, entered the Tibet Ali, I feel that this is no longer the earth, it is desolate, so I think this Is it right? Mars or the dark side of the moon.
我记得1971年的时候,我们要去野营拉练,时间正好是寒冬腊月。我们要背着行李包,要背着红十字箱,要背上手枪,要背上手榴弹,还有几天的干粮,一共是六十斤重。高原之上,寒冬腊月,滴水成冰,当时的温度已经是零下四十度,有一天我们早上三点钟,就吹起了起床号,说我们今天要翻越无人区,无人区一共有一百二十华里的路,中间不可以有任何的停留,要一鼓作气地走过去,因为那里条件特别恶劣,而且没有水。走啊走啊走啊走啊,走到下午两三点的时候吧,我觉得那个十字背包袋,就全部嵌入到我的锁骨里面去了,一句话都说不出来,我觉得喉头不断地在发咸发苦,我想我要吐一口肯定是血,我想这样的苦难何时才能结束呢,我想我年轻的生命,为什么我所有的神经末梢,都用来忍受这种非人的痛苦。
I remember in 1971, we are going to go camping zipper, time is the severe winter. We want to carry luggage, to carry the box, to back to back pistols, grenades, and several days of dry food, a total of sixty pounds. Plateau, severe winter, The dripping dripping water freezes, the temperature is forty degrees below zero, one day we get up at three o'clock in the morning, blowing a number, say we want to climb the unmanned area today, unmanned area a total of one hundred and twenty Village Road, the middle can not have any stay, should be done in one vigorous effort to go in the past, because conditions there particularly bad, but no water. Walked walked walked walked, walked to the afternoon two or three point, I think that the backpack bag, all embedded into my collarbone to the inside, and couldn't say a word, I think the throat constantly in the salty taste bitter, I think I'll spit is certainly blood I think this kind of suffering, when to the end of it, I think of my young life, why all my nerve endings, are used to stand the inhuman pain.
我当时就做了一个决定,我今天我此刻我一定要自杀,我不活了,我面对的这种苦难无法忍受,我这样决定了以后,就开始打算什么时间坠崖而亡。那这样就不断地在找,不断地在找合适的时机,终于我找到了一个,特别适合的地方,往上看就是峭壁高耸,往下看深不见底的悬崖,我想我只要松下手我掉下去,我一定会死。但是在最后一刹那,我突然发现我后面的那个战友,他离得我太近了,我如果下去的话,我一定会把他也带到悬崖之下,我在想我已经决定要死,可是我不应该拖累了别人。那队伍在行进中,这样的好时机也是稍纵即逝,之后地势又变得比较平坦,我再想找这么一个地方,就不容易了。这样走着走着走着天就黑了,我们就走到了目的地。一百二十里路就这样走过去了,背负着那六十斤的负重,也一两都不少的,被我背到了目的地。我站在那个雪原之上,把自己的全身都摸了一遍,每一个指关节,自己的膝盖,包括我的双脚,我确信在经历了这样的苦难之后,我的身体上连一根头发都没有少。那么那一天给了我一个,特别深刻的教育就是,当我们常常以为自己顶不住的时候,并不是最后的时刻,而是我们的精神崩溃了。那你只要坚持精神的重整,坚持精神的出发,其实当我们觉得,那是万劫不复的情景,也依然可以去找到它的出口,也依然可以坚持过来。
At the time I made a decision, I must Dutch Act I I at the moment, I do not live, I face this suffering unbearable, I so decided, began to plan what time falling off the cliff. It is constantly looking for, constantly looking for the right time, finally I found a suitable place, in particular, to see is the towering cliffs, looking down a bottomless cliff, I just want Panasonic hand me down, I'll die. But at the last moment, I suddenly found that fellow behind me, he left me too closely, if I go, I will bring him to the cliff under, I have decided I want to die, but I should not drag on others. The team is in motion, it is also a good time after transient, terrain and became flat, I want to find such a place, it's not easy. It walked walked the dark days, we went to the destination. One hundred and twenty miles just passed, carrying the sixty pounds of weight, one or two are many, I was back to the destination. I stand in the snow, his body felt, each finger joint, his knees, including my feet, I am sure that after so much misery, my body even one hair is no less. So that day gave me a deep, special education is, when we often think of when you can not stand, is not the last time, but we had a nervous breakdown. That as long as you adhere to the reforming spirit, uphold the spirit of starting, in fact, when we feel, it is doomed eternally scene, still can go to find its export, can still insist on.
我知道年轻的朋友们,在我们的生活当中,会有各式各样的苦难。有的时候有的家长跟我说:您能告诉我一个方法吗?让我的孩子少受苦难?我说我能告诉你的,唯一可以确定的事情是,你的孩子他必然遭受苦难。而且我们年轻的时候,我们的神经是那么的敏感,我们的记忆是那么清晰,我们的感情是那么充沛,我们每一道伤都会流出热血。所以尽管有很多人告诉你们,年轻是一个人最美好的时代,我也想告诉你,年轻是我们痛苦的时候,我们会留下很多很多的遗憾。那么最大的遗憾,就是断然结束自己的生命,我想这是对生命的大不敬。而且以我个人的经历来讲,那一天我没有结束自己的生命,我坚持下来了,我才发现,原来那最不可战胜的,并不是我们的遭遇,而是我们内心是否坚强。
I know young friends, in our life, there would be every kind of suffering. Sometimes some parents said to me: can you tell me a method? Let my children suffering? I said, I can tell you, the only certainty is, your child he must suffer. But when we are young, our nerves are so sensitive, our memory is so clear, our feelings are so plentiful, we each wound will outflow of blood. So although there are a lot of people tell you, young is one of the most wonderful time, I want to tell you, young when we are suffering, we will leave many regrets. So the biggest regret, is decidedly to end his own life, I think this is disrespectful to life. But in my personal experience, the day I did not end my life, I insisted, I discovered, originally the most invincible, is not what happened to us, but our hearts are strong.
日本有一位医生,在他的工作当中就是专门去照顾那些临终的病人。他和大约一千名临终的病人,谈过以后,他总结出了二十五条人生的遗憾,其中包括:没有吃到美食,没有回过自己的故乡,自己的孩子没有结婚,还有等等。
The Japanese have a doctor, in his work is devoted to the care of patients who died. He and about one thousand terminally ill patient, talk after, he summed up the twenty-five life regret, including: not to eat Food, has not been back to his hometown, his children are not married, and so on.
我和这位医生也深有同感,因为我曾经去过临终关怀医院,也陪伴着那些临终的人,走向他们生命的最后时刻,也跟他们有过很多倾心的交谈。我曾经到一间临终的病房,那是一位八十岁的老人,连他的儿女们都不再陪伴在他的身边了。他的儿女们都在外面说,他们不忍心看到那最后一刻,我说那我愿意进去陪伴他。我走进那个房间,深深地吸了一口气。我觉得在这个空气里有很多很多临终病人,他最后吐出的气息。然后我躺在那位老人的身边,摸着他的手,然后那个老人,轻轻地跟我说了一句话,他说我觉得我这一辈子,怎么好像没活过啊。
I and the doctor too, because I have been to the hospice, accompanied the dying man, the last moment to their lives, and they have a lot of heart to heart. I used to go to a hospice ward, it is a eighty year old man, even his children are no longer there by his side. His children are outside, they can't bear to see the final moment, I said that I would go with him. I went into the room, took a deep breath. I think there are a lot of dying patients in the air, he finally exhaled breath. Then I lay down on the old man's side, touched his hand, and then the old man, gently said a words with me, he said I think I this lifetime, how like never lived.
我今天把这个故事和年轻的朋友们来分享,我就是想说,我们每一个人的生命都是一张单程的火车票,我们每一个人都没有拿到往返的那张票。所以生命从我们出生那天开始,它就像箭一样地射向远方,我们能够在自己手里,把持住的就是我们此时此刻,这无比宝贵的生命。我特别想说,我希望我们的理想服从于我们的价值观。在我们的心里,能够燃烧起熊熊火焰的,并且给我们的一生以指引和动力的,是我们对于自己认为最美好的那些价值的追求。
Today I read the story and young friends to share, I just want to say, we each person's life is a one-way train ticket, every one of us did not get the ticket from the. So life since we were born that day, it is like an arrow into the distance, we can in their own hands, holding that at this moment, the most precious life. I particularly want to say, I hope our ideal subject to our values. In our hearts, to the burning flames, and give our life to guide and power, are we for themselves that the value of the pursuit of the best.
举个我个人的小例子,2008年的时候,我终于用我的稿费,买了一张船票开始去环球旅行。走啊走啊走了没多远,才走到南中国海,就知道我们的汶川地震。船上有一千多个外国客人,只有我们六个中国人,可是我说,我们一定要为中国发起一场募捐。后来我们的团队里有人就说,那些外国人要是不给咱们捐钱,我们多么丢脸哪。我说可是我们中国人,要不为自个儿的祖国做点什么,那才是丢脸呢。我们说我们一定捐美元和欧元,这样的话,会让我们那个(捐款)数字变大,如果我们都捐人民币,人家会觉得是我们自己捐的,我们捐美元和欧元,但是当所有的钱都揽到一起的时候,船长对我说,里面有两千元人民币。我们只有六个人的,这很容易查呀,吃饭的时候,我们就互相问:谁捐的人民币? 我们不是说了要捐美元和欧元吗。最后我们六个人说,我们都没有捐人民币,后来我就跟船长说,这船上除我们以外还有中国人吗,他们说在深不见底的底舱,永远不能到甲板上来的,那些工人里,有你们中国人。我就回到北京把这个钱捐了,捐了以后,北川中学知道我回国了,就打来电话,说希望让我到北川中学,去当一次语文老师,因为我有一篇小散文,叫作《提醒幸福》,是收在全国统编教材的初中二年级的课本里。
For my own small example, in 2008, I was with my money, bought a ticket to travel around the world. Walk walk walk not far, go to South China sea, we know the Wenchuan earthquake. There are more than one thousand foreign guests on board, just the six of us Chinese, but I said, we must a fundraising initiated for China. Then our team, it was said, those foreigners if not give us the money, how we face what. I say we Chinese, or for own motherland do what, it is shameful. We said we must give the dollar and the euro, if so, will let us that (donation) numbers bigger, if we all donated RMB, others will think we donate, we give the dollar and the euro, but when all the money to come together, the captain said to me, there are two thousand yuan. We have six people, it's easy to find ah, dinner, we'll ask each other: who donate RMB? We are not told to donate the dollar and euro. Finally, we six people say, we have not donated RMB, then I tell the captain, the ship would have Chinese except us, they said in a bottomless deck, never to the deck, those workers, have you Chinese. I returned to Beijing for the donated money, donated, Beichuan middle school that I went back to China, phone call, say that I went to Beichuan middle school, to be a Chinese teacher, because I have a short essay, called "to remind happiness", is in the national textbooks in the beginning of two grade textbooks.
我不怕地震,可是我有点怕,我写的这篇文章的题目,它叫《提醒幸福》。那样的大震之后,他们的老师有伤亡,他们的同学有很多很多再也不能回到教室里,我要去跟他们讲“提醒幸福”。我觉得在这种困难的情况下,幸福在哪里。但是那一次北川中学之行,给予了我巨大的教育。因为北川中学初中二年级,所有的同学们会聚在一起,他们告诉我说,他们是世界上最幸福的人。我说你们说自己是最幸福的人,你能告诉我你们幸福在哪里,后来他们告诉我说:那么多人死了我们还活着,这就是幸福!
I'm not afraid of the earthquake, but I am afraid, I write this article topic, it is called "happiness" to remind. After the big earthquake that, their teachers have casualties, their classmates have many never returned to the classroom, I'm going to tell them "to remind happiness". I think in such difficult circumstances, where is the happiness. But that a Beichuan high school, giving me a great education. Because the second grade junior high school in Beichuan, all the students gathered together, they tell me, they are the happiest people in the world. I say you say he is the most happy person, can you tell me your happiness in where, later they told me: so many people died. We are still alive, this is happiness!
我们在马路上看到,那么多的汽车后面,所有的那些车牌号,比如说会写上北京的京,比如说广州的粤。还有,他说我们可以看到全中国所有省份的汽车,我们就觉得全国人民在帮助我们,大震才过去了十几天,我们今天就可以恢复读书了,难道我们还不是世界上最幸福的人吗!我听了以后真的热泪盈眶,我才知道在生死面前,最宝贵的东西是什么,我们重新享有我们生命的时候,一定要把自己价值观中,那些最重要的东西放在前面。
We see in the street, so much behind the cars, the license plate number of all, say will write the Beijing Beijing, for example, Guangzhou guangdong. Also, he said we can see the whole China all provinces of the car, we would think that the people in the earthquake to help us, only in the past ten days, we can return to school today, did we not the happiest person in the world you! After I listened really tears, I know that in the face of life and death, what is the most precious thing, we enjoy our life, be sure to put your values, the most important thing in front.
我下个月会出发到非洲去,我真的觉得那是我的一个愿望,如果我不抓紧去实现它的话,我会越来越老,身体也会慢慢地有更多的问题,眼睛不再那样明亮,看不了非洲的动物,也许我的思维就不会那么敏捷。对于那样灿烂的文化,和悠远的历史,我理解起来,记忆起来,可能就会有困难,然后还要翻山越岭,万一自己跑不动被狮子追上了,是不是也有点危险。
I will start to Africa next month, I really think it is my desire, if I do not hurry to achieve it, I will be more and more old, the body will slowly more questions, not as bright eyes, can not see the Africa animal, maybe I'm thinking not so agile. The brilliant culture, and history, I understand it, remember, may you have difficulties, and then have to tramp over mountains and through ravines, they should not run chased by lions, Is it right? Also a bit dangerous.
所以如果你有愿望,如果你真的还有力量去实行它,我觉得我一定要即刻就出发,去完成自己的愿望,让自己更少的遗憾。人生是一个漫长的过程,年轻是多么的好,但是请你们记得,记得有很多的东西,当你不懂的时候,你年轻,当你懂得了以后,你已年老。
So if you have a wish, if you really have the strength to do it, I think I must immediately start, to complete their own desire, let yourself less regret. Life is a long process, the young is how good, but please remember, remember a lot of things, when you are young, you don't understand, when you understand, you are old.
那么让我们的理想不要变成化石,让我们现在就行动起来,去实践我们的理想,让我们的人生少些遗憾,谢谢大家!
Then let not our fossilized, let us act now, to realize our ideal, let our life less regret, thank you!