2020-02-01
I am flushed a few times, rarely but it happened with James, when he said something like before my leaving, that I should trust myself to follow the instinct, including if I see a man rather than so cautious I should trust my feeling, I feel my blood is rushing to my face, saying that I do not think it will make me a sex-open person and what happened between us is still difficult for me to do with others, which I have no intension. Even a fresh new year, I am in Sri.Lanka is waiting for me! Anyhow it happened when my uber is calling we were just walking down no time to really clarify, I was feeling a bit down that this is not so special for him as for me, that he thinks it is a nice sex but we move on to others?
Glad he just called me now, rather than sending message only which he did, I was flushed again when he said how much he wants to be inside of me. I did ask him if he is so open for sex we should go with others, he said no, I just think u should trust yourself I will not say do and not do. I can still smell your aroma what u left and ...........it is so touching and I feel happily flushed, and said honestly it is special, not easy for me but I am happy he did ask me and I long for the hug now, even feel his message is good for my trip alone or loneliness. I am looking forward to next time we have a kitchen so he can do his cooking I can watch:+), which I find it very interesting by watching his way of cooking, also this afternoon. it is kind of relaxed and with a beauty into it, we talked about his journey in Japan and Thailand where he started his yoga journey 2003 from an American guy Andrea and Larry for meditation.
When neighbor Uma came, with rage roti, few other things we start talking about different foods Uma loves, Rage roti is super delicious and healthy, we talked about his passion on food tour etc. he has no job, it seems quite difficult for locals!
We visited his parents very authentic family giving us bananas James going to take roti lesson and giving them yoga lesson! They know sadhguru teacher and also thinks s taking much money for yoga etc!
We came home James talking his ideal program and his plans in June like a kid which is naive and also cute we are both dreamers in our 42+ and I feel from time to time sensational warmth to him!
4pm I am sharp to leave he is very touchingly saying how much he enjoyed being together and both of us way too cautious that I should follow my instinct if I feel for the man! I asked him to clarify do u saying I should be opening up for sex with other man? I do not think I can be that open it was not not easy with u also but I am happy I did! Real hug I am gone!
Was early waiting in bus stop with many wasted air and saw a Chinese looking for bus trying to help then he said I just arrived to figure out way back I was alert to go away!
Bus was late until 5.20 to leave i have time to rest and sleep in bus chewing what James said and left on me! All those moments and sensations!
印度海关员带着口罩我也是问我：上海武汉多远？ 我急忙解释很远！一个人咖啡厅工作课程改进，终于凌晨check in，需要马上订回程，诸多考虑最终2月28去GOA，那就这样吧！决定啥时候回来，都是对的！
