Last night I had a very bad dream, telling me i am gonne be dead. I still remebered some details about that dream. I don't know what happened in dream but I was in the hospital and needed to do some medical tests. When i was in the waitting room, my grandma was there, but she was gonne two years ago. That was so real in my dream, where we talked well very and she was so nice and cared about me.

However, i felt the whole life was colorful and happy until i got the blood examination : I got a deadly disease called hemolysis. I don't know how to explain the disease clearly but the situation impressed in my head. The test report told me that my red cells was damly few and became less and less.

Once I realized that, there were two phases in my mind giving response to the unexpected disaster. Firstly, I was so surprised that I couldn't believe it is true but the life was gray suddenly; and then I thought how to tell my parents and my boyfriend. How could I leave them like that ? There are so many things I want and need to do with them. For my parents, I rarely accompany them since I was in middle school. They love me so much even though they are shy to say that. I asked the god why do they have to go through this and how could they stand it. For my boyfriend, I felt so sorry about him because I couldn't be with him forever. In almost two years long distance relationship, he had to tolerate my bad temper.I had so many things to do but no chance in my dream.

I woke up because of the nightmare. I couldn't sleep and stay up all night to consider the dream. Maybe I was in great pressure or anxious these days because of the awful work or daily schedule.  This dream is a

hint, reminding me that I overlooked these people around me and even lose myself. I wouldn't like the life in my subconciousness and I know that but no changing. Now the dream said that I should focus on my dream and meaningful things.

I get some tips from this dream:

fisrt,  be yourself without mimicing others blindly;

second, love these people who love you;

third, remain your dream whcih reminds where you are and where you go ;

the last one: take action to achieve what you want.