it's surprisingly wrong, i can't believe this, why it's like this? why because it makes me feel uncomfortable,but i can change all of this. just a way of thinking method , i can change it. but be quickly , come on come on come on. two pictures can't be together, i feel so upset.but i always trying to stop this and tell me it's ok but it's not. just because it makes me feel uncomfortable if it's not comfortable then i can't get the right way to think and do work effectively. 

After i finished this chapter i don;t feel comfortable maybe i need to do something different to solve this.it's way to do this though i don't want to move i have to do this.

don't do it particularly just to see in your own eyes. once give up give up always. when i try to see i use my mind to focus on but it's not right.

when think it clearly then it's not a problem anymore so try to make yourself clearly and it must be a good way recover.

she might be do it then out of my imagine again.

so it's not right. if she likes me?what she will do ?I won't do anything for her, so does she.I can't control anything . i want to learn and show but always make a mistake that i am not with the...... 

when immersed in reading then i will feel comfortable it's not like white of black choice . i really regret for this.

it will automatically turn to other side and i can't find a good way to solve it. can't focus on it. it's the worst problem.

when finish one thing then i feel better, i can still do in many other ways but many difficulties. i can still do it with hope there must be a way. math is interesting. and i can finish it.at least i don't want it to affact me. money so much i can't give up. then finished, not a big problem. but much time.

the central mission is to find a comfortable way , this is the important thing. not just because i can't focus on. it has been affecting. i will find a way. it's not easy.