Now i’m kind of confused about my life, my career. Even though i’m not that young any more. I don’t have the courage to fly away from my current life and leave everything behind me. I kept thinking who am i, what can i do, what should i do, what’s my future will be. Everything is unsettled. And i’m afraid to make any decisions, or make my choice, especially for my personal life. For my career normally I don’t hesitate so much, i can have my judgement for almost everything, but for my life, once i make the decision, then everything will be changed, and it’s hard to change again. Maybe i worried too much. Maybe I shouldn’t have so many confusions or considerations. Most of the time i like to be alone. And i like to travel alone. One of my friend asked me why i don’t go with friends or relatives together. Isn’t nice to have someone to share with everything? Maybe it’s nice for most of people. But for me it’s not. I felt lonesome when i was traveling to other countries. But most of the time wha i felt is exciting. I can escape from the normal life, and i met different interesting people, i talked with different person, who i might never meet again. But that’s the interesting parts. It’s easy for me to talk with some strangers about life, which i don’t talk with others in my daily life. Strange me. I know. Maybe in the future i’ll change my mind, but now i’m so stubborn, i can’t persuade the inside me. So whatever.
