When I look back at my life now, I can't seem to find a thing that I absolutely enjoy, that when I think of doing it, I would feel utterly happy, satisfied and full of joy, like, cosplay.
It is time that I search for something like this in life.
I should not put all my eggs in one person. My emotions should not be affected by one single person or incident.
I need to find myself. I need to do something that brings me confidence, admiration, joy and a feeling of being fulfilled.
I should try learning a new language. I should try making new friends. I should try to involve in a new community. I love talking to people. I love feeling good around others. I do not enjoy being all by myself.
I want to be acknowledged. I want to be admired. I want to be looked up.