** 原文《我是一个任性的孩子》顾城著 **
也许
我是被妈妈宠坏的孩子
我任性
我希望
每一个时刻
都像彩色蜡笔那样美丽
我希望
能在心爱的白纸上画画
画出笨拙的自由
画下一只永远不会
流泪的眼睛
一片天空
一片属于天空的羽毛和树叶
一个淡绿的夜晚和苹果
我想画下早晨
画下露水
所能看见的微笑
画下所有最年轻的
没有痛苦的爱情
画下想象中
我的爱人
她没有见过阴云
她的眼睛是晴空的颜色
她永远看着我
永远，看着
绝不会忽然掉过头去
我想画下遥远的风景
画下清晰的地平线和水波
画下许许多多快乐的小河
画下丘陵——
长满淡淡的茸毛
我让它们挨得很近
让它们相爱
让每一个默许
每一阵静静的春天的激动
都成为一朵小花的生日
我还想画下未来
我没见过她，也不可能
但知道她很美
我画下她秋天的风衣
画下那些燃烧的烛火和枫叶
画下许多因为爱她
而熄灭的心
画下婚礼
画下一个个早早醒来的节日——
上面贴着玻璃糖纸
和北方童话的插图
我是一个任性的孩子
我想涂去一切不幸
我想在大地上
画满窗子
让所有习惯黑暗的眼睛
都习惯光明
我想画下风
画下一架比一架更高大的山岭
画下东方民族的渴望
画下大海——
无边无际愉快的声音
最后，在纸角上
我还想画下自己
画下一只树熊
他坐在维多利亚深色的丛林里
坐在安安静静的树枝上
发愣
他没有家
没有一颗留在远处的心
他只有，许许多多
浆果一样的梦
和很大很大的眼睛
我在希望
在想
但不知为什么
我没有领到蜡笔
没有得到一个彩色的时刻
我只有我
我的手指和创痛
只有撕碎那一张张
心爱的白纸
让它们去寻找蝴蝶
让它们从今天消失
我是一个孩子
一个被幻想妈妈宠坏的孩子
我任性
** 译者 梅话三弄 -- 梅姐姐译**
** 译文《 I am a Spoiled Boy》by Gu Cheng **
Maybe ，
I am a spoiled boy by my mom，
At will .
I wish ,
Every Moment ,
Were as beautiful as colorful crayons .
I wish ,
I can paint on my lovely white papers,
Leaving an awkward free will.
Leaving an eye
That will never cry .
There is another sky .
The sky has feathers and leaves,
Leaving an apple and an apple-green night.
I want to paint a morning.
Leaving some fine dewdrops,
I can see smiles through them .
I want to paint the youngest age ,
leaving beautiful love without pains.
In my dream world ,
My lover ,
she has never seen black clouds before.
She has an eye like the blue sky .
She will keep an eye on me forever,
will never stop.
She will never turn around , leaving me alone .
I want to paint far- away landscapes.
Leaving a clear skyline and water ripples,
Leaving plenty of rivers.
Leaving mountains ,
with light and complete feathers .
I want to make them come close ,
make them fall in love .
Every silence ,
and every surprise in silent spring , will never go down.
It would be every flower’s birthday surprise .
I want to paint a bright future .
I have never seen her, and will never see her,
But I know she is so beautiful .
I want to paint her coats in autumn day ,
Leaving some bright lights and autumn leaves,
Leaving a go-on heart ,
for loving her a lot .
I want to paint a wedding day ,
Leaving every early morning, we wake up in holidays
with colorful wrappers and Chinese northern paintings
on windows’ glasses.
I am a spoiled boy.
I want to erase all kinds of unfortunate memories.
I want to lie on the land
with all kinds of paintings on windows’ glasses.
I want to make all eyes in the dark ,
enjoy bright lights.
I want to paint winds,
Leaving big mountains , one by one ,
Leaving wishes of the east nation.
Leaving a big sea
with endless joyful voices.
At last , in a corner , on my white paper,
I want to paint my shadow.
Leaving a koala bear ,
he is sitting in a far-away forest with dark color by Victoria,
Sitting on a tree branch , silently ,
will never cry .
There is no home
without a far-away heart out there.
He has , has only many beautiful dreams
as colorful berry fruits,
and a big , and big eye .
I wish ,
I wonder ,
I don’t know why ?
I have no crayons .
Have no colorful moment .
I have , have only myself
with all my fingers and my pains .
I can only tear my lovely white papers , one by one .
I want to make them look for their butterflies .
I want to make them disappear at this moment .
I am a boy .
I wonder , if I am a spoiled boy by my mom ,
at will .
