if you really spent time talk about girls,

i mean, girls stuff,

i ll be very pissed off like, you know,

the galaxy thing.

anyway.

so i really liked those good looking thing,

i mean, good looking girl.

used to. maybe.

i cant even recall her face. the real one.

oh no, not that zero one, the colleague one,

the same ponytail one, the gray hat one, no not that gray hat one.

should i change her name to ms zero sun the greatest boss ever since metal gear 4 2014?

dont fool me. cuz i was about to be fooled.

i think they were thinking that im about to fool em.

thats possible, i always do those thing, nobody knows if i really had two dick or not.

ok, thats a lame one, i was about to say nobody knows if i really had a dick or not.

alright, this never happened.

nobody knows if i was in jail or not.

oh common of course they knows!

whatever. he said he had a plan about set us to date.

maybe we cant call it a date, thou we had no party culture,

we sometime just set a small KAISHOKU together,

something like a tiny party but not at all.

i absolutely believed him but it never was done.

i wonder if i ever asked him about it.

cuz i really cared. oh fuck i feel so sorry.

now i think i didnt.

i think that was basically the first time i was in this kind of sets.

and before that, i couldnt tell.

i dont know if she ever recall me what would she fit me into,

i mean, if there ever was,

a stereo type.

geek? nerd? otaku? super-kid? GARIBEN boy?

you know somebody told me that girls told their manager that they think im a fuking super man,

the bad way.

anyway im sure she wont forget me like im not gonna forget those nobody in my class.

she just dont recall some time.

now im in this kind of stuff agin and i dont see any chance for me.

did i believe in tylers decipline ? i mean i got my psp before i got her in a sep class.

no, this matters, it will be a huge change if i didnt believed em.

but to be honest, im a bad believer.

i want her.

here go some no idea stuff.

but no, really, i mean, i do.

it started a night my mom called me in a very strange way.

she must thought im about to become a gay.

i said, my company never hire women with no kids.

and our link guy said, oh yeah maybe you gotta get a baby as soon as you can.

what a fucking long term plan.

decipline one, im a thirty years old boy i cant get married.

someone says that you dont have to get married to have kid.

someone got kids in newyork and in bay simoteniousely.

someone like me thought that he ll tie his kid up with some electric wire if the young man wont shutup in subway.

and someone like her will just smile at that and keep her mouth shut.

and today i met some body read the word "shutter" as "saudi".

mother fucker i hate muslim.

ok this can be another topic.

so move on.

the link guy left, left us together, the first thing i do,

i pissed my self.

we ve got a pretty funny slang called NIAODUN, NYAOTON in japanese maybe,

refers to a master skill what makes you stealth with your piss.

not, that, hi-teck way.

i thought she knows that slang so i choosed to do that and of course,

i couldnt stealth myself.

and she was there still.

i have totally no idea what should i do next.

and she said,

common lets just go home.

my favrite lyrics from pinhead gunpowder .

and we did.

i bought her last latte.

it sucked.

i actually had a lot to say, i tried a lot,

and i found it last that you ,

you,

you are the only guy that i can through this shit to.

dont you feel lucky?

dont you feel you should create another guy to be here?

ha, you cant.

i dont know why it is my penny board in my sight now.

the first one, the 22 inch one.

maybe i really should ask her for skateboard.

i cant ollie at all.

ok, finally, my point is.

im really not, for this.