When you see me,you can hardly imagine that I have been sick for a longtime.Judging from the appearance ,everyone can see me as fit as others,nothing is different from others.Yeah,my illness is not so terrible.Maybe I should not complain about it.However,this is the reason why I have to stay at home rather than an excuse not going out to work.
First of all ,allow me to describe what’s wrong.I am feeling weak because of the three kinds of sickness:
1.hyperthyroidism(甲in Chinese).I have been sick by this for more than two years.But it doesn’t bother me too much as it’s not painful at all,I can easily ignore it.I just need to keep taking medicine and go to see the doctor regularly.It can be healed,only a matter of time.
2.rheumatism(风湿痛,in Chinese).No one can understand that I have been suffered the pain of rheumatism for about 20years up till now. This is what I really worry about,because there’s still no way to heal this illness so far.Possibly ,it will continue hurt me a lifetime. And it usually suddenly comes up by the pain on knees and elbows.What’s worse,such pain can last as long as several hours to one or two days each time.Sometimes it also hurt me from falling asleep at night.It brings me a lot of trouble so that I have to look for the methods which can efficiently relieve that pain.Unfortunately,I haven’t found any good ways.
3.deficiency-cold(虚寒,阳气不足in Chinese).Before,I was too conceit by thinking that I was healthy and strong,without paying any attention to take good care of myself.The most silly thing I have done--Sleeping in the living room with doors and windows open for months in order to take good care of the puppies at night.Now I have to admit that’s all my fault ,my carelessness that lead me to be so weak.It’s ridiculous that I am afraid of any cold and usually have to wear thick clothes in such hot summer days.I am tying my best to get recovery,for example doing some sport,paying attention to the food,taking good rest,etc.However once was damaged,it needs a lot of time to make the improvements.
Being sick,sometimes I even can’t stop thinking that I am getting much older than my age,not active any more.A big part of my life maybe has lost meaning as useless as I am.I already feel depressed enough,there’s no sense to tell anyone about all this.Because no one can really comfort me,I need to find the hope and be happy once again.