Two years after we break up, he called me again :I happen to be on a business trip. Shall we have a meet? I said : All right.
This city was dilapidated in spring. Mining and reconstruction could be seen everywhere. I was running on the treadmill. The sprinkler passes, sparking a huge cloud of dust.
It was my first trip to Germany. I couldn't sleep on the flight because my neighbor’s child was crying all the way. After a dozen of hours flying, the plane landed at the Frankfurt international airport at the middle of the night. Out of the gate, I saw him standing in the distance. I moved close to him，leaning on his shoulder, my tears running down my cheeks. Ultimately, 120days, no jet lagged. Sitting on the passenger's seat, I fell asleep after saying a few words.
His apartment has been cleaned, exquisite and elegant. I could see it everyday in the video during the past days. I even found he bought a new ashtray. After washing the dishes, we locked eyes. He looks thinner in the video. Twelve hours ago, we just had a quarrel. Even the expensive plane ticket was booked after the quarrel.Those few days, I stayed in the apartment in the daytime, taking out the book on the shelf one by one. I couldn't read most of them. There was a Das kapital and financial law, with the cover I packed for him. After coming off duty, he drove me to see Heidelberg, the spectacular and beautiful castle. The scenery looks like postcards.
I asked him:“ Will you come back when you finish the second degree?”He didn't speak. I've crying on that day, loudly accusing him of his inconsistence. He let me toss and turned restlessly, and then embraced me tightly. He said: I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
That year, he gave me a cat, but I lost him.
That relationship was ardent and clinging. Endless waiting and abjection full of my later life. I become calm and restraint. It even changed the track of my life. I’m willing to sacrifice the long corner. I don’t want to see the outside world any more. The subtle light that enveloped us has dissipated. We are no longer the sparkling person in each other’s eyes. We are walking on our own road with no intersection.
