Read Steve Jobs address in Stanford.
You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
Keep looking. Don't settle.
If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right.
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there.
And the most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
Somelines from Zuckberg 2017 Harvard commencement speech.
A change in the world that seems so clear you're sure someone else will do it. But they won't. You will.