God is a teacher. He has always been trying to teach you something -basically lessons. Yep. I mean god is always ready to teach you a good lesson.
How does God teach? He never lectures. He uses the most precious things in your life to teach. What you care most. What you love deeply. What you want crazily. He teach you by taking them away.
You are in pain. You are lost. You have to stop and think. There must be a reason. Maybe you are asking for the wrong thing. Maybe you are heading the wrong direction. Maybe your direction is right but you are going in a wrong way.
There must be something wrong. you have to find it out by yourself. God knows the answer of course, but he won't tell you. Because it doesn't help unless you get it all by yourself. And then, you really learn something, and you will never foget.