First , I know your puzzle , why I begin to use English to write my words , the answer : it is such the original state that I can't change , so , sorry ~~don't beat me...
Today I met an acquaintance , we talked something ranging from flowers to people who is the most handsome.(you know who is...) then I suddenly referred to an individual : Li Shuotong , and I somehow yearned for his life : became single when he was in thirties while he married a japanese wife at the same time , but he still dropped out , out the world full of tempt , color , varied emotions etc. , leaving us the famous poem "the trail edge" .
Maybe I could be a monk when I was old. Who knows...