The day befor yesterday was my first day on main gaming floor! That was terrifying and both with excitement! Before I went there to work, I feel so nervous like before go to a war with someone or other countries! But first day was so good! I met few good guests, one of them betting so big as close to 50,000 a hand! Luckily I do not feel that much nerves maybe because it’s a chips not real money! I may not feel nervous on real Money too I guess, it’s not involve my money anyway!
Then I been to standing up table, first hand like I place them face down! They just laugh don’t know what I were doing there! Hahaha they looks so funny, probably they looks me the same way!
Yesterday was my second day! It’s all good! Just writing the comments are not that excellent! But still alright!
Because sleep time changed so my body feel up side down all the time! Do not want to eat feel powerless! Feel weak! And worry so much about my sleepiness! Do I get enough sleep? Or should I sleep more sorts of things worries me! Oh I learned a new word call vex me similar as worries! Lucky I can use it!
What I really want to do? I feel Eric is getting more and more stupid! Oh what should I do? He do sweet all the time! Am I have enough sweetness?
There is no fun parts between us now, it’s not true I am do not want him now! I want someone better, better on every way I guess I want a perfect person
Then I will feel pressure to be with perfect person then I will testing his heart then we will broke up! Oh sad story personality!
Anyway I need continuou going! Need work and making money then play hard as well! Hahaha I do have money to do the things I like! That’s kind lucky too!