Stoner人生中的高光时刻 - 爱情线 - Chapter XII - Part One
When Katherine Driscoll opened the door for him William Stoner almost did not recognize her; she had swept her hair up and caught it carelessly high in the back, so that her small pink-white ears were bare; she wore dark-rimmed glasses, behind which her dark eyes were wide and startled; she had on a mannish shirt, open at the neck; and she was wearing dark slacks that made her appear slimmer and more graceful than he remembered her.
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初读时没留意,现在回过头再看,可得板起脸假装学术气地说一句:啊!好大一个暗示!草灰蛇线,伏脉千里哪!Stoner当年一见钟情的女子,在他眼前展现出的最直接的特点是什么?Slim & graceful!嗯,审美专一,又对一个瘦瘦美美体态优雅的女子动了心。
不过嘛,当年遇见Edith的时候,那纯粹是倾倒在她的石榴裙下,受了色相的吸引,不问内里如何。现在见着KD,有了之前Seminar上的精彩展示和后期优质论文的铺垫,心中多多少少已起了“此乃我同道中人”的念头吧。
其中“mannish”这个词儿很有意思(当然以下也可能纯属我个人的穿凿附会),后来捅破这层窗户纸的是谁呢?KD。他们之间的亲密关系被Lomax作为把柄公然要挟,最终痛下决心付诸行动,舍弃自身利益保全他人的又是谁呢?KD。处于父权社会的大背景之下,表白啊收拾烂摊子啊,或者就干脆说即使是处于当下到处提倡男女平等的时代,担负这些任务的似乎都更应该是男性。因为他们天然拥有更多的资源,在社会中占据更大的优势。路遇荆棘,由更为强势的一方出手铺平道路,解决麻烦,不是更合理么?即使单论KD和Stoner两人,后者的职位更高,收入更多,人脉更广,若他真能放手一搏,结果可未必如此呢。KD身上的坚韧与男子气概,由此可见一斑。
He smiled and shook his head. “You didn’t need the seminar. But I am glad you were able to sit in on it. It was a good one, I think.”
“Oh, it’s shameful!” she burst out. “It’s shameful. The seminar—you were—I had to start it over, after the seminar. It’s shameful that they should—” She paused in bitter, furious confusion, got up from the couch, and walked restlessly to the desk.
Stoner, taken aback by her outburst, for a moment did not speak. Then he said, “You shouldn’t concern yourself. These things happen. It will all work out in time. It really isn’t important.”
And suddenly, after he said the words, it was not important. For an instant he felt the truth of what he said, and for the first time in months he felt lift away from him the weight of a despair whose heaviness he had not fully realized. Nearly giddy, almost laughing, he said again, “It really isn’t important.”
哈哈,根据后文暗戳戳怀疑KD参加这个Seminar其实是希望有机会每周名正言顺地与自己的心上人共处一室。或者也极有可能,她是在Seminar上对Stoner动了顺便加深了春心。
有些事,说出来心中能稍觉宽慰,然而听众得是那个对的人。获得自己所在意认同的人的共鸣与安慰,之前遭受的一切不公与不幸,似乎也就没那么重要了。这个人不是Edith,是KD。